2014 was a doozy. When I think back on everything that happened in the past year, my heart starts to pound.
I started 2014 with a very long and ambitious list of goals in my hands, and I pushed myself. Hard.
At first, it felt extremely gratifying to tick items off my list. Ideas became reality, doors opened, I got to explore new places, and had the pleasure of meeting some truly incredible people. Then suddenly, it felt like everything started snowballing and happening at once. I was tackling projects left and right, day and night. I had never felt so stressed, anxious, and completely overwhelmed in my life. (Sounds kinda ridiculous coming from someone who just became a yoga teacher. The irony is not lost on me.)
Thankfully, it all worked out in the end. A spectacular abundance came out of the hard work, but I know it wasn't all my doing. You see, the problem wasn't the list itself. The issue was that perfectionist/control freak voice in my ear, whispering incessantly that I need to get everything done, and do everything right, right now. Flawlessly. Or else.
It is time to stop answering to that impossible demon.
No list for 2015, just one simple intention: Freedom. My wish is to live in a way that allows me to try, fail, and accomplish without limits. To be kinder to myself. To just live with joy and purpose. And above all, to trust that God is perfectly in control.
I'm looking forward to this one, and I hope you are too. Happy new year! :)